Abramelin, day 222

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

I’ve realized that my days and nights are filled with doing divination, magic, seership, mediumship past few weeks. If this isn’t alchemical I don’t know what the fuck is. I’ve been getting my taste of full time magician, witch, and priestess and I’m finding that it comes entirely too natural to me. I feel at home.

Another day in Salem.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 221

Morning rite went well.

Got unemployment straightened out, scheduled car for repair, and got an energy scan reading, and all before noon today. Fun times!

Another day in Salem.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 220

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Another day at the Salem job, busy doing readings. Got home, fed cats, crashed. Despite the exhaustion, still infinitely prefer the work I do here vs in IT. That’s saying a LOT–in both directions.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 219

Morning rite went well, managed to get noon prayer rite in.

Clearly I have found my niche–not that I didn’t already have a sense of it anyhow. Got a LOT of compliments today on my readings: I have a real gift, I’m a headliner, etc. Doing my best not to let it go to my head but happy to hear that I’m helping so many people doing something I enjoy.

I’ve also been offered the opportunity to act as a regular backup psychic on weekends. Definitely going to do it. Could help a lot towards transitioning out of IT.

So many people seem surprised at how long I’ve been at this rite now. Honestly…end date is up to the gods. I figure receiving my almond wand will be a signal as to about when I need to make the final preparations for the last part of this operation.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 218

Morning rite went well, noon prayer rite barely made in.

VERY late night working in Salem, but did very well in tips. Helped out a lot of people.

Came home, crashed.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 217

Morning rite went well, pressed for time with noon prayer rite.

 

Insane day at Salem job but was good. Came home, fed cats, showered, did evening rite, collapsed.

 

Two more days then time to get everything done before I start my new job.

Abramelin, day 212

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

Another day in Salem. Went well although nowhere near as busy as yesterday. Yesterday was nuts.

Very, very aware of how much that needs to get done this week. Glad I have some time set aside to relax, go out to eat, get a massage, etc. I need the downtime. Also, need some kitty cuddle time.

I’m spending so much time in altered states that being in the rest of world is starting to get weird.

Once again finding myself in a position of having to stick to my ethical principles even if it means bowing out of a group. A shame but so it goes. I keep finding more and more issues with the Hellenic polytheist community; there are a number of good people in it but too many assuming roles of leadership who really have no business doing so. More and more I am realizing I will need to strike it out on my own, maintain friendships but ultimately do my own thing. I don’t know if I reacted the right way about it online; I got a bit fired up about it. But it’s an issue which has come up before and has shades of the whole “x deity told/commanded me to tell you all xyz” which I find incredibly distasteful.

I also got to finally communicate how I feel about a difficult issue with someone, which makes me incredibly relieved.

Evcening rite went well. I need to spend more time in meditation and offline in general.

 

Abramelin, day 211

Morning rite and noon prayer rite went well.

31 readings in all today. Today was almost as busy as it normally gets around Halloween. Crazy! Got to help many, many people though. Very happy about that.

Days and nights becoming more and more surreal. Time for sleep.

Evening rite went well.

Abramelin, day 210

Morning and evening rites went well.

Crazy intense dreams all last night, don’t know what to make of any of them.

Face to face interview with what appears to be a good company. Fingers crossed.

Worked after in Salem doing tarot readings. Did well.

Lots to do and think about. Evening rite went well.

 

 

Abramelin, day 207

Morning rite went well. Noon prayer rite done in car on way to work, got called in for a shift to do readings again but had to leave early for an appointment.

I’m starting to stress about the interviews and I’m realizing how much I intensely hate this entire process, my main career, and how badly it drains me. Half a day for these interviews, all of them. And these people think I’m still employed as all of them were scheduled when I was.

There has to be a better way.

Evening rite done in bed, was suffering from horrible stomach pains. I blame it on trying to eat too much for dinner after not having eaten much past few days.